my eyes are full of inferno and homicide will
I wish I had a gun to pull the trigger and kill
I am so sick of the wars, I'm so sick of the fights
'cause all I ever wanted was some peace in my life
I've been so down and so deep you would never believe
the point is you won't understand the carnage I've seen
I saw that when I was a child and my father could kill
my other father when he took his fucking gun and that was freezing me
I couldn't understand that everything was so wrong
I was too young to realize the monster that I would become
brain relentless hammering
rude and crude soul smouldering
boiling blood and loss of sleep
beaten broken drowning deep
whiskey and diazepam for breakfast burn fast
there's no truth let everything collapse taste every pain with lust
desperation therapy destroys
abandon truth hope will and joy
desperation therapy transcends
with no desires pain will end
all pain will end
there is no hope in my life, things are always the same
the more I'm growing old the bigger are my mistakes
and when I think of my past everything is confused
so what the fuck is wrong with me, I just always lose
I try to do what I say and to say what I think
I hate to fight the battles that I lose when I win
I've often been a leader but I'm better alone
I'm just a man that is too sensitive and walking on a rope
I feel the storm arriving and I carry the weight
and now you wonder why it seems I'm never afraid?
constant pressure of the stress
my life has always been a mess
the dreams of youth are burning fast
the last will always be the last
I proved my strength through constant violation
and passed the thresholds
my resisting qualities are tough, so this disaster lasts
desperation therapy destroys
all of the apathy you enjoy
desperation therapy transcends
no fear no truth no time no sense
there is no sense
heart and mind a double grind
it'a balance hard to find
introspection and world outside
it'a balance hard to find
heart and mind a double grind
it'a balance hard to find
introspection and world outside
it'a balance hard to find
all the desperation we all know
contains a lesson to be learned
do things you like
get rid of all your pride
be kind, not cool
let life become a school
be patient with the painful
choose who you want around
beware of stupid people
and search the peace inside